nicencold

Hey hey! My name is Ash I like to make games. I used to have a different page here but I forgot my password and lost the associated email lmao

When we were kids, they kept asking us, "what do you want to do when you grow up?" When we were teenagers, they asked, "what do you want to do for a living?" And I never could answer those questions. Until, not suddenly, but after years of the thought slowly cooking inside my brain, I realized: I want to make art.

But that alone isn't enough. What art do I want to make? What art can I make? It took a long time of trying, and of, as it always happens, failing, and trying again... Until I gave up. And I said, "well, I guess I'll just play games and do nothing."

And so I did. And I started seeing that games have stronger emotional effect on me than anything else. I am a part of it. I am doing it. I am pacing it. Whatever happens there, happens to me. And then I knew, that is the art I want to make.

So then came more years trying, failing, and trying again. Then came the psychiatric problems and I stopped trying for a while. But now I'm back, and I'm trying again.